Pity face
All I want is someone to make me believe everything’s okay. That I’m okay. And hold me and just let me cry until I have no more tears left to shed. And just never let go until I can find happiness again.
I just wish someone could understand how I feel. Understand me. And every problem I have. But it’s the one thing in the world I can’t have. And neither can anyone else. So my problems are thus unsolvable. I’m stuck in a hole for the rest of my life.
I love you but I just don’t really like you anymore…-that’s how I feel…who knew it could hurt this much.
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It's not really a question I write you now. I just read your blog here (ok some parts of it) and follow you now, because I find it really interesting. I want to make you a big compliment, your life sounds not easy but it seems like you really get on with it. :) cheer up! I hope you'll find your love some day and can found a family, like it's your wish :) Nice regards..
Wow thanks(: it’s funny how caring strangers can be even at your worst moments they seemingly matter more than those close to you.
I hate how everyone says they’re worried about me and all this bullshit. But in reality no ones doing anything to help me. Everyone’s just adding more fucking stresses and problems to my already over fucking whelming pile of shit. So keep throwing shit at me. Keep going. Bc at this point I’m back to square one. #helpless fuck you all. I can’t deal with any of this. I’m better off isolating myself and being alone to figure out these stupid problems that can never be solved. So maybe, just maybe if I do it on my own. And if not oh well. I guess I’ll just give up. So fuck being assertive, fuck the three step rule, fuck the no stress, and most of all fuck trying to get help.
I’m tired of being optimistic and getting shot down…nothing works ever the way I want it. There will always be some problem that arises…always. You make me doubt if “us” is even a real word. I always end up being the one with more feelings, more emotions, maybe I should just shut them all off. I’m always too blind to see that from the start…that you don’t even truly like me like I thought. I guess I expect a little too much…I guess a boyfriend isn’t supposed to like you? Or if anything knows it’s going to end, and tells you I just want sex. Like Megan Fox said, “Society cares more about losing their phone, than their virginity.
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My happiness
I’m not like everyone else when I know I’ve upset someone I care about it hurts me worse. All I want to do is run away bc I always cause everything upon everyone else. I’m sorry I’m forgetful and disorganized. I don’t ever mean to hurt you for it. I hate that I can never control that about myself bc I always cause problems and unhappiness to others. And I’m sorry.. Im not like everyone else where I can just ignore it bc when ive hurt your sunshine its my fault and it’s something I never want. And I can’t just move on bc it eats at my conscious it’s a guilt I can’t just wish away. I’ve cause that shadow on your happiness and I hate that I don’t ever want to be that shadow. Never.
(: i want everything to be okay. To be worry free, carefree. Safe from everything, yet exposed to everything. To lead but follow…to never lose those things in life that makes me happy. That makes me wear the goofiest smile. And to lose scratch that; to let them go on my own eventually when the time comes.
(: i want everything to be okay. To be worry free, carefree. Safe from everything, yet exposed to everything. To lead but follow…to never lose those things in life that makes me happy. That makes me wear the goofiest smile. And to lose scratch that; to let them go on my own eventually when the time comes.
